Finding The Right Words About Who I Am
A 7-day scripting journal challenge. Day #1 🖤
My new year did not start out as planned.
I, like most people, started 2025 with big goals and good intentions. I had big dreams and a detailed plan to make those dreams my reality. I had a plan to increase my income, create some cool products and start a creative business, challenge myself in my dance and fitness activities, read lots of books, write lots of articles and record lots of podcasts, travel, eat good, work hard and play hard.
Unfortunately, I actually spent the majority of January stressed out, crying, wall sliding in the shower, and questioning: what the hell am I doing with my life?!
Every positive thought I had about what I wanted to do this year, every vision I wanted to bring to life, was immediately shut down by the same brain that created the ideas in the first place. The same negative inner voice that’s haunted me my whole life reared its familiar head, challenging every brief moment of inspiration and motivation with the consistent refrain:
“You can’t do that. Other people have already done that better than you ever will. That’s too hard. Who do you think you are? You are not ready. You are not as good as you think you are. You are not interesting or likeable or special. You are not enough.”
If you’ve been following my journaling for a while (thank you!), you know the majority of my writing time is spent trying to fight back against my instincts to beat myself down. My journal has always been a safe space for me to be as vulnerable as I need to be, pouring out my heart and my thoughts, good, bad, and ugly.
I love journaling but I’m tired of having a mental breakdown on every page. Journaling is more than just transcribing your worst thoughts. My journal can (and should) also be a tool where I not only learn to understand my thoughts, feelings, and behaviors, but where I can actively practice changing those thoughts, feelings, and behaviors.
I want to feel something new so I’ll have to try something new. Enter… scripting.
Scripting is slightly different from affirmations because it's less about affirming what I already feel and know, but more about imagining a life for me that doesn't exist yet but IS very possible. It’s a manifestation technique where you write down what you want to happen as if it’s already happened.
The next seven days will be practice sessions for me to immediately challenge every negative thought with its exact opposite. I’ll write down at least 10 affirmations of who I really am, not who my depression and anxiety say I am.
This week is gonna be a little different kind of journaling challenge for me. But hopefully I end it all remembering who the fuck I really am.
This journal entry was written for DAY 1 of the Finding the Right Words 7-Day Scripting Challenge. Follow Finding The Right Words on Instagram for more prompts and affirmations. Write your own journal entry and share it with me!
There’s no wrong way to journal. You just gotta find the right words. Happy Writing!
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Cheering for you all the way, and I think I'm going to try this too! We can work on shutting down the negative voice that lies to us!
thank you so much for sharing, i felt the same way. I came into the yesr so optimistic and then i just ended up so stress. Im going to try scripting as well. Pray for you 🤎